The Existential Crisis of the Twenty-Second Year

At the age of 22, I experienced a drastic upheaval in my life that had me confronting the mistakes I was made and the sorrow that I had refused to acknowledge up until that point. This showcase is an expression of the values I have lost and found, the teachings of others, and everything I have learned- and continue to learn- about myself. Through writing, collage, painting, and drawing, this piece reflects the girl I once was, the girl I am becoming, and the myriad of lessons I have experienced on my journey.

  • This piece seeks to recognize the plight of young girls or people deemed lesser in a patriarchal society who are forced to grow up too soon in this world. It represents the life-long struggles caused by everyday challenges, emotional trauma, and detriments to development that result from a society that offers girls fewer opportunities for exploration and expression than their male counterparts. The continuous line work is meant to emphasize the emotional dichotomy between feeling too old and feeling to young, prompted by a lack of childhood, as well as the everlasting humiliation—whether self-inflicted or dictated by others—that typically arises when one reveals their childish side or is faced with an event that leaves them feeling helpless, like a child. Both cases make one vulnerable to exploitation.

    Mixed Media; Continuous Line Drawing, Collage, Watercolor | 2016

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    Featured at the second annual CASPFest held by the Charles Adams Studio Project in the 5&J Gallery in Lubbock, Texas.

  • Drawing inspiration from the journal entries from my time living in New York and the year after. A brief look into some of the powerful experiences, healing moments, and the enlightenment of self-discovery I experience. A glimpse so minor that it could only be measured in the time of a week. Using the collage medium, I juxtaposed images, quotes, and symbols to tell this story.

    Mixed Media; Collage, Watercolor, Pen, Found Objects | 2022

  • The first page of my collage journal series - is a visual representation of my internal process when I am unable to manage or comprehend my feelings or thoughts, causing them to overwhelm me. In this state, I enter a detached state of being where everything inside me fades into the background, melting away from the edges inward. This feeling became all too familiar during my time in New York and even more so afterward when I began the process of starting over and healing.

    Mixed Media; Collage, Pen | 2022



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